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Posted: Post subject: serodiscordant lack of care about transmition |
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I have decided to stay in my relationship being the negative party, I get tested every 3 months. I have done all the education about it. When my partner was diagnosed we had just met and I refused to have S-- with him until we got tested. Well we did and they found him to be positive, he burst into tears because he thought I was going to leave. He is currently undetectable on the quad pill.
Something I don't understand and I am trying to figure out is his lack of care about transmission. I will not have an*l --- with him unless he wears a condom and yet he still tries. He's always trying to put it in and is like c'mon I hate condoms. I'm like well that's the attitude that got you here. Because of this our S-- life is not good but our relationship aside from S-- I could not ask for a more loving caring person..... Does anybody else have this issue? When I try googling it I get nothing but the positive person always carries the stress of infecting there negative partner. For him I feel like because he is undetectable he thinks we can just do it. I will practice fellatio unprotected and never let him ejaculate in my mouth followed by me rinsing with hydrogen peroxide. but I still feel unsafe and I'm about 2 years into this relationship. I'm an extremely s----l person and the lack of S-- is enough from the meds and to add in well I hate using condoms really is killing it for me and my attitude about it is killing it for him I think. Any thoughts? Am I crazy?
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