idk how to tell my familly im hiv postive

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Ok so I have manny things going on in my life atm, my mom is Mexican and she is old fashimed , she tells me I'm suposed to be with a girl and all of that stuff she can't acept that I'm gay , she has gone threw depression cuz of my fault and its hard to see her like this , I got tested 1 year ago and I was negituve my firstt bf ever and now of had a couple and got tested 3 month ago and was still negituve I get tested the next month cuz my bf has a rash on his penuis so we both get tested at our local vac clinic for free like uslly and well my test results came out postive and his negituve I don't know how to tell my mom about this I've told my bf and he took it really bad , and now I have to go to so manny clinics just to get help that there really far away and idk how to tell my mom about this , how to tell her that im going to die cuz I was stupid and didn't use protection, I came postive 1 month ago now and I'm still not takeing medication they say they have to check my blood and see if the pills even works for me, they told me I'm on the window period stage I really don't know what that means , or what I'm going to have to go threw, I'm 19 and idk what to do

[moonwalker1us]

Ok so first of all I am sorry that this has happened to you. It is the hardest thing you will go through. I am a 38 year old woman I found out I was positive in1996. My mom and dad very Christian and I thought they were going to disown me. I was terrified to tell them but when I told them they do not freak out like I thought they would they were actually very supportive. I really pray that you're mom will be that way to. What they mean by window period is that they have to try to figure out who you got it from and what medications that virus is resistant to. The HIV virus can build an immunity to meds like you're body can to certain viruses (like chicken pox) so that when they give you medications they will work on the virus. I pray that you can find the support that you need in this. I know right now this may seem corny but thru all my HIV+ years I have to keep reminding myself to smile you will have good days, bad days, and really bad days but there are people out there to help ask your doctor they should have information about it don't be afraid ttlo reach out for the help it is there for you! Good luck from me

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`I hope that you have found a good support group/friend/doctor that can walk you through the first few steps. They are the hardest. I have never told my family. It has been one of the hardest decisions of my life, to keep such a secret, but such is as it is. HIV+ isn't the final stage of life my friend. I've had the good days, the bad days, the depression . . . it's a battle, both inward and out. Your body, your mind - both have conflicting rational of good/bad, right/wrong. HIV+ doesn't make you any less of a person. Anyone less than who you are, which I'm sure that you are a special individual who is loved by many people. HIV doesn't make you - you. It's just another part of life. One that you have to live with, but it isn't so scary of an experience as it used to be. The medicine & science is their that can ensure you live a normal, productive life. You just have to be patient with your doctors - find a GOOD one you can talk to, trust. That is the most important. Maintaining a good relationship with a Doctor that you're comfortable with - tell them the truth, no lies, and your walk living with HIV will become much easier. I pray that you find a way to open up to your family - if that is what you want to do. And that they will overcome the stigma & fear concerning your HIV status, and simply love you for who you are - regardless.

[queen4life]

`I HAVE BEEN HIV FOR FOUR MONTHS AND MY MOTHER IS THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS THAT'S PART OF MY FAMILY. I'M FINDING IT HARDER TO DEAL WITH HIV PPL WITH ATTITUDES JUST IN ITSELF.