Scarred from the past...

[flyprcutie128]

I'm not quite sure what this site is all about, I am new here
but I cant seem to get over the devastating news. I just found out back in May of this year that Im Ill with the virus. I am undetectable now but the person who did this to me purposely took advantage of me and me..Its hard to cope with now because my family does not know how exactly I contracted the disease. It'll be too hard for them to know the truth. I still keep my head held high but still feel so torn inside. I feel decieved, violated, and I dont think I could trust another the same again. Im afraid to, but I don't want to be alone. I would like to have a companion by my side who understands me as I will him. Someone that can journey with me to finding myself once again, someone who can make me feel like me....


Til then, Adambaybee

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`Adam,
Let me start by saying how sorry I am that you had to go thru that and for the results mentaly and physicly. I got it from my now ex husband who cheated all the time. I know how hard it can be to trust again and to be vulnerable. I have had alot of bad experiences too but you cannot let the hurts of the past keep you from the love in your future. You cant change the past but you can try to learn what u can from it and move on. I recently did just that and think I have finally found the man God intended for me. Yes I'm still scared as hell but I'm not going to let someone from my past rob me of a happy future. So put on your cutest big boy pants and go look for your mister right. Opening up to your family may be hard but it may also lighten your heart and you may end up with support you didnt know u would have. Only u can decide that. I wish you all the luck in the world.C