hurt soul

[hurtsoul85]

I don't know how to explain the pain I'm feelin inside,Even tryin to ease the pain I lay down and cry bury myself in a quilt or thinkin of and inner place to hide.
I will begin to tell you how it all started but was caught up in my own lies,wantin it not to be tru so I made it a disquies.
I was on the streets with my addiction at a youung age and without love,struggled through it all for this addiction even if push came shove.
Not knowin the hurt it would cause on my life today,If I would have known I would have choose a better way.
Caught so deep I became weak and alone,needin someone to love me however it was shown.
Then one night I was sellin myself to all,here comes a man who rapped,beated and left me with no one to call.
Prayin today that he is dead,so i can have one peaceful night of sleep in my bed.
Strugglin with this through all these years,tryin to overcome all the pain and fears.
Not yet fullblown from this disease that may kill,I am still hurt prayin for GODs will.
Some may know I am sick,and use it as a weapon beatin me down with a thorn on a stick.
But what choice do I have now,I'm am askin myself why or even how.
What made the world want me to die?What did I do wrong please tell me why?
Just heal me or make it all a mistake and make the test be wrong,I want a healthy life I want to live long.
I want to get married,I want a tru friend,who will be in my life until this agony will end.

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`thats deep.