Unclemamabear, 61

i've been out of the loop (bar scene, dating) for about 20 yrs. i lost a lot of friends to aids/hiv from 1985-2000(i stopped counting @ 100) i was diagnosed hiv+ in 1985. hiv hasn't been a problem for me, (undetectable) but have a long list of challenges i've overcome. (fibromyalgia, adhd, migraines, + more) i'm ready to get back to the land of the living! a mini stroke in 2001 left me unable to do the work in food service/hospitality ind. with 35 yrs exp. (waiter, bar tender, asst mgr). it left me with balance issues and i walk with a cane, and have been on disability since 2001. lately, i've had an issue i never thought was possible for me, erectile dysfunction, and am working on a blog on the subject, exploring the herbal route and have had some success being my own guinea pig. i have lots of free time and i'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired! i need to laugh often and will try to make you laugh always. kinda' crazy and have a twisted sense of humor. looking for someone to do fun things with. (movies, people watching, anything involving nature, exploring portland, etc) i love photography, cooking, wine tasting, plants, animals, music of all kinds, and i'm an avid toy collector. like i said, it's been a while, so i'm open to exploring the world outside my apartment. i'm told i'm attractive, always kind, funny, and i'm a good friend. i've been on this planet for 51 years, but inside i feel like i did before i broke. i'm 6 ft. tall, 180 lbs, brown hair, blue eyes, and am fuzzy and considered a bear in the gay community. i am 420 friendly since cannabis is the only pain killer my hiv doctor will allow. i'm considering going back to work in the cannabis ind. which will employ a lot of oregonians. i'm not apposed to being friends, or more. if we hit it off and you need a loyal friend who loves long conversations, or cuddling and kissing and just going with the flow....here i am.